Sick Sick... Cough Cough...

This sucks... I mean... Truly, really sucks...

Been thinking of going on a short holiday. Couple of days in HK or Thailand would do me good.... recharge my spirits n stuff... but...

Haha...

Been coughing so badly I'll wake up every 2 hours at night... With blood and stuff.... Haha... Must have burst a few blood vessels here and there... At least the time in bed (sorta) ain't entirely wasted... Finished watching some 53 episodes of 'Initial D', something I once swore I would never do... :)

I wonder what is it about being sick. You are never sick when you feel tired and need an MC, yet will fall sick when you are enjoying a well needed break or holiday.

Hhmm.... wonder if the viruses keep a contractual schedule/ memorandum of understanding with our bosses.... Hahahaha!!

Right... Enough grumbling and conspiracy theories... Back to bed.... =p

House Warming Party

Wow... What a night...

Really like to thank all my friends for turning up... I mean... Did not expect the turn-out I got... Thanks guys...

For coming straight after work... In the midst of your busy life... Straight after long journeys and flights to share a few hours to celebrate a new phase of life with me.....

I am really really grateful for friends like you all...

Thank you :)

Endings...

If there is a God, He must be laughing at me right now.

Is this retribution for disappointing the women who have loved me? That I must always be attracted to those who would toy with my feelings, or be unable to reciprocate them...

A cosmic joke? Or divine retribution?

Hahaha

How stupid...

Depeche Mode ~ Somebody

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who’ll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She’ll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She’ll hear me out
And won’t easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she’ll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who’ll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don’t want to be tied
To anyone’s strings
I’m carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I’m asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I’ll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....

Crossroads

Once I have put words on paper, I know there will be no turning back. I know from the beginning that there may be no place in your heart for me. But each time I see you, each time we speak, I find myself falling deeper and deeper… Like the moth to the flame…

I do not dare to say that I love you. Love is too sacred a word. But I do like you… I really do. I know I have never held your hands… Nor held you in my arms… Or hug and comfort you when you were down. It is not that I do not want to, but I cannot…

I will not…

I do not want a moment of weakness on my part to cause you additional pain and an extra burden you do not desire.

You tell me each time I sent you home that you appreciate my effort. I would like to tell you this:

It is I who should be grateful… I thank my stars each time I get the chance to spend these moments together with you. I do not mind the long trip on the bus… Or the walk back to your block. I catch a glimpse of heaven each time I look into your beautiful eyes… The sweet scent of you as you walked by my side and the cool of the night... These walks shall always be among my most treasured memories.

Do you know that you are the most beautiful woman in the world? I want to tell you that each and every time we meet, yet the words are always stuck in my throat.

You are perfect in every way. Your smile, your laugh… Your voice… The maturity of thought and keen intellectual discussions we had… Our shared passion for life... Similar interests… Ideals and values, about people, about family… You are so strong and yet so vulnerable… Streetwise, yet maintaining a carefree innocence, and a naiveté that is all too charming…

I do not know if you have any feelings for me… But the only way to go is forward, and once the line is crossed, there can be no turning back and the only way forward can hold something special only for two, no more.

As I write this, I knew that deep down inside, I have always dreaded this moment when a choice has to be made. I wish I could say that I can be happy so long you are happy but even if I can fool the whole world, I cannot lie to myself… It hurts too much to know that you are in the arms of someone else…

You are the only woman I have ever wanted to marry. You are the somebody I want by my side for the rest of my life, through good times and bad, happy and sad. All that I ever wanted is to stay by your side and keep you safe. To dry your tears as they fall, to give a shoulder for you to lie on when you are sad, and offer my arms when you need rest.

When heart meets heart… Love will light the way…

I hope that one day, you may meet me there by the crossroads so we may light life’s path together…