Way Back Into Love

Watched Music and Lyrics the other day and somehow, the song has been stuck in my head for weeks after. Finally decided to track it down and post it online... Just for the hell of it. Enjoy :)

Way Back Into Love

[Cora]
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

[Alex]
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

Chorus
[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

[Cora]
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

[Alex]
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

Chorus
[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

[Cora]
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

Chorus
[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

I have a dream

I was about to start this post a.k.a. Martin Luther King by going "I have a dream..." but it seems weird to hijack his famous starting line because A) My dream is not as grandiose, B) He is a great visionary for his people while I'm not, C) His speech inspired and ignited a generation of Americans and will live for generations more while mine is less than a page long and may inspire mass vomit and hysterical laughter if I'm lucky at all, but I digress.

I think my friends would know that I am contemplating quitting teaching as I am quite tired of the system. Well... Quitting is well and good, but what comes after? At 28, with only a degree and some 3 years in the Civil Service for experience, my resume do not look good. In addition, a B.A. with merit do not have much financial clout in today's market. After some consideration, I decided to pursue my first dream, which is to get a Degree in Law. Hahaha! Yes... Kaw GeGe is thinking of becoming a LAWYER... Hahahahahahahaha!!!

I would not go on about how this dream came about or the details of how I plan to complete my degree with the limited resources available to me. Suffice to say that when there's a will, there's a way. What I want to say is more important than this. I realise that my buddy, K, is right. When you decide to work towards your dream, every single day is a day you look forward to. Everyday becomes a joy, when you look forward to a new beginning rather than counting down towards an end.

Despite my sickness, I am living life with more energy than ever before... The depressive lethargy that has plagued me from the beginning of the year has largely lifted. I am finding more time for my work now, because my work has a purpose, which is to fund my dream. I am always looking at new opportunities, new jobs, because they may allow me the time and money to do my degree part-time. I still have fears... Fear of paying the mortage on the house on time, fear of not getting a place in university, fear of wasting the next 4 years of my life I decide not to take the bar after all... But these fears are not chains for the wings of my dream, they are the anchors rooting me to reality, they are the whips spurring me to new heights.

I have a dream.

Sick and Tired

Been falling sick pretty regularly these weeks... Even as I am typing, I can still feel the grumbling in my tummy from 4 hours of stomach churning and diarrhea till 2 am last night. It is so bad I am planning to visit the doctor's immediately after school today.

The last 2 weeks have been pretty depressing on the whole. It is amazing how MOE persists to say there are no problems when teachers are quitting everywhere. The turnover rate is so high I wonder what's wrong with our education system. Colleagues who have joined us for a few months are already looking at alternative options after their bond ends.

To add to my sense of depression, two of my better students got into trouble yesterday for skipping class. It was such a disappointment that I actually felt my heart ache. Perhaps its a symptom of an impending heart attack or something... Sigh...

Anyway, I am looking forward to school to end in a few hours time. Then, I'm gonna see the doctor, and rest over the Good Friday weekend...

Looking forward to May...

Crystal Mirror! A Touch of Black :)

Well well well.... Yet another party event, this time, courtesy of my chiong buddy S, who dragged my ass out of a mahjong party, to a private party at Crystal Mirror, the limited time only, European Fine Dining Theatre at the Padang.

So, on the 24th of March, 2007, we met at 11.30pm on a Saturday night in town. As it turns out, the evening didn't start too well... We were caught in the rain at City Hall... After 15mins of wussing around, we finally decided to run for it, following closely behind this caucasian gentleman, and his lady friends, who turned out to be attending the same party we are.

Anyway, the tentage was quite beautifully done. To be honest, I felt really out of place among all the expatriates, the models, the socialites, the rich, and somewhat famous faces dotting the area. One of the few times I felt a loss for words.

The only sober photo we took that night.

Hhhmmmm, I guess I have to say it was quite an experience for me. I've never been to an exclusive private party before, and never chionged with the rich and famous...

It was quite the eye opener, meeting 4 surgeons, 2 pilots, a journalist, 3 marketing executives and other misc ppl throughout the course of one night. It was quite the opportunity for a savvy fella to network, though I must say I was at quite a disadvantage, having no name cards, and owning a rather non-marketable job i.e. teaching.

Anyhow, it was still fun, especially once the drinks start coming in, and the music started grooving...

Raj, resident bartender, full time surgeon, party animal. Famous Last words:" Just drink, its the doctor's orders."

Just one of the many vile concoctions made from the doctor's lab. Vodka, vodka and raspberry liquer, energy drink, 7-up and champagne, urgh!!!

A word of advice for chionging with the jet-setting crowd. These guys sure can drink! Throughout the night, I counted 3 bottles of champagne at $350 per pop, 2 bottles of Vodka at $250 per bottle, 3 bottles of Raspberry Vodka Liquer at $100 each, and even a 12-year bottle of aged Tequila at $800 per bottle (which I must say is surely one of the smoothest drink I ever had, neat, heehe).

This was the part when S finally got high and wanted to dance.

The live band was spinning some great music that night, accompanied by some great tempo from the drums... Too bad the party crowd can't be seen. My clique prefers dancing way behind, where there's room to show off our moves :)

E, one of the new friends I made that night.

I guess I wasn't as drunk as this fella who decided to drink while doing his thing... :)

More Vodka! Courtesy of this young, drunk, gentleman who dropped by and put it into my lap... Free booze!!!

Well well, talk about cultural differences, imagine my surprise when this young fella popped by and dropped the vodka into my lap without so much as a bye. That is a very kind and generous gesture from him. I wonder how many Asians would do that, passing the booze around when you are too drunk to do anything with it. More likely we would be enquiring with the waiter the possibility of storing it away for our next visit. Too bad I was pretty high then and really wasn't in any condition to do it justice. I think I finally left the bottle with the doctors and pilots to polish off with as they please :)


In conclusion, I guess it was a pretty good night of fun. It was the nearest I got to being drunk in the presence of almost total strangers. Of course, I had to send my buddy S home, so a measure of sobriety had to be retained (though it was Raj the Doc who sent her back in the end).

Adios Crystal Mirror! Hope to have fun under your canopy again soon!