Moving in on Troubled Waters

Been busy with details of moving to my own place recently... While... sorta my own... I mean... My money, but co-owned with my granny...

So I guess this is a bitching session about how broke I am... How messy it is to move my stuff.... Especially since I have packed away like 6 boxes of books now... And have yet to start on my liquors... Clothes and PC... Not necessarily in that order... Haha...

So I guess this fulfilled the moving in portion of my title... ;-)

As you can guessed... This is going to be a long entry...

Troubled...

Sigh... Got a warning I'm not meeting my boss' expectations. Guess my efforts next term have to geared towards petting her fanny... OOppPs! I mean... Kissing her Ass.... Erh... Wrong again... Meeting her expectations.... Haha... Sigh... Enough self pity here... :(

Been skipping meals... Thu: Parent-Teacher meeting. Lasted til 9pm, skipped dinner. Fri: Parent-Teacher Meeting. Lasted til 7.15pm, skipped dinner, got a scolding from my HOD... Again.

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Guess my buddy is in trouble too... On the one hand, I can understand why he is so frustrated and angry... On the other hand, I did warn him...

The problem is that he is getting rather short tempered recently... Which never bodes well for courtship of any kind. I feel that he should just take things easy, and not just listen to what people say. After all, its his personal affairs, and what people tell other people can sometimes differ due to differing perspectives and it gets worse when your own interest skews these perspectives... Confused? I sure hope so... Hahaha!! ;-)

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As for me?

Well... Getting the hot and cold treatment. Actually, I do not know if it can be termed that.

I guess I can take it easy because I am not putting in too much effort... But... Sigh... Sometimes, life just aint fair... Nor easy... Haha...

I guess I do not dare to try too hard because I believe I would fail. Yet like a moth to the flame, I would flit ever closer and closer... Allowing myself to be drawn deeper and deeper.

Every moment i spend with her is an eternity... Each time I look into her eyes, I get a glimpse of heaven. I feel like my heart is as wide as the ocean... Deep enough for her to pour all her trouble...

Enough rambling for one night... I guess...

Quarter Life Crisis

Time to stop and take stock of my life so far...

Quarter Life Report Card

5Cs...?

Condo = Nope... Does my own HDB apartment count?

Cards = Yup, Yup... sigh :'(

Cash = Haha... Well... If I wait for another 23 years...

Career = Whatever mess I am making of it now...

Car = I got a flat! What do you think??

Love Life = Currently zilch...

Working Life = Buried alive

Friends = Most are buried in the same grave

Remarks

Do I sound pessimistic?

I don't know. I guess it is interesting to do a reflection of life at every stage. Right now, I do feel that what I am doing is right.

My kids were asking:"Have you always wanted to be a teacher? Do you like to teach?"

Simple questions... But thought provoking nevertheless. I guess I still have to say yes. Maybe not what I will do for the rest of my life, but I have to say that I still love to teach... Its the paper work and office politics that sucks...



"Get a girl who can understand your situation. Its not enough that you love each other. Find someone that your grandparents will approve of. Find someone who is all this and rich to boot."

Haha.... good advice from a friend of mine. But since when did love had anything to do with common sense and cold logic? I still have time... not much... but a year or two is plenty... I guess...



"I still like her."

Another friend. Is it easier to love someone in secret? Or better to just declare it and bring it into the open? Isn't it just some time ago that you declared your disappointment... and yes... hate for her? Is love the root of all hate.. or vice versa? Do I even care?

I have my own problems to handle. Personal demons to wrestle. My own bear to chain. Selfish? Perhaps.



Overall

He is a conscientious and quietly dilligent student. He is capable of shouldering greater responsibilities and communicates well. With concentration and greater effort, he should be able to achieve better results.